User:Thijshijsijsjss/Notes on SI24 - Revision history

Thijshijsijsjss: Fix typo

2025-02-25T13:43:31Z

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	\|style="width: 30%;"\|I notice that a new space can quickly overwhelm me. Brussels was no exception. Still, I want to experience this newness and the stimuli that ~~comes~~ with it, the challenge is in finding ways to help me process this in a manageable way. One strategy I often rely on, is listening to familiar music. This is really pleasant in two ways:		\|style="width: 30%;"\|I notice that a new space can quickly overwhelm me. Brussels was no exception. Still, I want to experience this newness and the stimuli that come with it, the challenge is in finding ways to help me process this in a manageable way. One strategy I often rely on, is listening to familiar music. This is really pleasant in two ways:
	* The familiary of the music acts as a tether to hold on to in overwhelming unfamiliarity.		* The familiary of the music acts as a tether to hold on to in overwhelming unfamiliarity.
	* The new stimuli always end up causing me to connect with this music in new ways: by making me pick up things I didn't notice before, and by adding a new experience to the body of lived-through memories that fuel my situated subconsious.		* The new stimuli always end up causing me to connect with this music in new ways: by making me pick up things I didn't notice before, and by adding a new experience to the body of lived-through memories that fuel my situated subconsious.

Thijshijsijsjss: Add link to next trimester notes

2024-09-03T08:14:10Z

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	<div style="text-align:right">Next trimester's notes --></div>		<div style="text-align:right">[[User:Thijshijsijsjss/Notes_on_The_New_Year\|Next trimester's notes -->]]</div>

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Thijshijsijsjss: /* Week 11 + 12 */

2024-08-07T11:38:53Z

Week 11 + 12

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	However, in that regard this SI has made me more hopeful. Even though we did work more seperately, I didn't feel in tune with the project at all times, and I was very anxious if we'd be able to pull everything together in the end, ultimately I did feel the group energy the day of the launch. We did manage to get together, and find meaning in the variety momentarily diverged paths. Going into the graduation year, I expect us to diverge even more. But instead of feeling axious, this feeling is making me excited for it. Maybe for personal life, too, I can convince myself of it. Even in diverging paths, even in moments of isolation there's still a connection that remains, and when there's a convergence again, that moment is all the richer.		However, in that regard this SI has made me more hopeful. Even though we did work more seperately, I didn't feel in tune with the project at all times, and I was very anxious if we'd be able to pull everything together in the end, ultimately I did feel the group energy the day of the launch. We did manage to get together, and find meaning in the variety momentarily diverged paths. Going into the graduation year, I expect us to diverge even more. But instead of feeling axious, this feeling is making me excited for it. Maybe for personal life, too, I can convince myself of it. Even in diverging paths, even in moments of isolation there's still a connection that remains, and when there's a convergence again, that moment is all the richer.

			[[File:CTIC bakfiets.jpg\|600px\|thumb\|center\|The Counter-Tourist Information Center in all its glorious bakfietsness]]

	=Bijna bestaand boekenhof=		=Bijna bestaand boekenhof=

Thijshijsijsjss: Add some rambly w11/12 notes

2024-07-02T15:03:21Z

Add some rambly w11/12 notes

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	I feel better after this conversation. Good introspective conversations have been a scarcity lately.		I feel better after this conversation. Good introspective conversations have been a scarcity lately.

			=Week 11 + 12=
			These weeks feel like a haze, mostly due to personal events. Suddenly, the SI is there and I haven't been able to sink my teeth into it. I tried to <code>be selective</code>, but what has this left me with?

			I ended up spending most of my time leading up to the SI24 release event working for the [[Counter-Tourist_Information_Center/Communication\|Communication / Holding team]]. I was happy that there was still opportunity for a collaborative effort that way. There was a general sense of splintering and maybe not as much motivation, also in me. In a way, maybe this has been a moment of learning as well: learning to take initiative when the situation demands it. This is difficult, and part of me wishes I was able to initiate more, earlier in the SI already. But towards the end, I do feel like I put in some extra effort, like initiating a mapping exercise that would eventually lead to the promo visual and the sticker sheets.

			I am a little unsettled with how little I have to say at this moment. It's not that I don't have experiences to reflect on, nor that I don't want to or am too busy vacationing. But in a way this lack of motivation persists. What's the point? It's more like a lack of meaning, really, not a lack of motivation. Going into the summer break, this scares me to no end. I know I have to keep myself busy in these months, which means there's a need to create meaning for myself somehow. Going into the second year, too, I am worried by this. As mentioned above, I don't want to find myself in a situation where I don't feel passionate for my graduation project, but sort of stumbled into it. How do I find this enthusiasm, and the energy to take this matter into my own hands? Sitting in the studio right now, the first day of summer break, I'm asking myself: is it only possible for me to truly create something meaningful to me if I'm by myself for extended periods of time? Is this the price I have to pay for introspecitve fuel? I know this is not completely true, that it's just voices in my head trying to subtly convinvce me into isolation.

			However, in that regard this SI has made me more hopeful. Even though we did work more seperately, I didn't feel in tune with the project at all times, and I was very anxious if we'd be able to pull everything together in the end, ultimately I did feel the group energy the day of the launch. We did manage to get together, and find meaning in the variety momentarily diverged paths. Going into the graduation year, I expect us to diverge even more. But instead of feeling axious, this feeling is making me excited for it. Maybe for personal life, too, I can convince myself of it. Even in diverging paths, even in moments of isolation there's still a connection that remains, and when there's a convergence again, that moment is all the richer.

	=Bijna bestaand boekenhof=		=Bijna bestaand boekenhof=

Thijshijsijsjss: Add debrief pad

2024-06-29T21:26:55Z

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2024-06-27T07:56:02Z

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Thijshijsijsjss: Add link to OSP PPP 'presentation slides'

2024-06-21T09:57:36Z

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	==Pen Plotting Party at OSP==		==Pen Plotting Party at OSP==
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Thijshijsijsjss: Fix typo

2024-06-18T08:55:58Z

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Thijshijsijsjss: Add w11 tuesday pads

2024-06-18T08:54:59Z

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Thijshijsijsjss: Add notes of meeting with Steve

2024-06-12T14:51:08Z

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	~~General feelings~~ of having lost touch with my inner-self		I've been experiencing a feeling of having lost touch with my inner-self over the last 6 weeks or so. Or, now that I am writing this, I may have felt this way since moving end of February (3,5 months ago). I had a talk with Steve. I wanted to express this feeling and discuss some restlessness regarding next year. I've been appreciative of the one-on-one chats with the tutors this trimester, but feel like I haven't used them fully; mostly, these moments focussed on group work I've been doing. While that's useful, too, I don't think it's fully representative of what I want to do next year. I foresee a pitfall for me of using the guidance by the tutors not as a resource to reflect and propel my interests and works already intrinsically motivated, but as an escape into external validation. I'm afraid I'll force an artificial arc of learning and interest to 'please them', so to say.

			Steve asked some poignant questions. What are expectations I feel like there are of me? For one: I expect I either can communicate my interests and projects, or communicate my insecurities about them. I feel restless, because I am not convinced I will be able to do this. Although, maybe ironically, maybe naturally, in this conversation I did feel like I was able to express and connect with myself. The ''introspective journey'' that is so important to me has been clouded.

			Last week, in the mutual interview I did with Senka, we talked about format versus content driven projects. It seems like format driven comes more natural to me. However, looking at my [[User:Thijshijsijsjss/PTMoMNBM\|PTMoMNBMs]], I feel unsatisfied: apparantly there's something missing. Thinking about media is exciting, and I don't think I'll stop doing it. Something that is a big part of my (self-perceived) identity is (communicating) introspection. However, this is not really present in my projects. Maybe this is part of what I'm missing.

			When Steve asked me about what projects were the results of intrinsic motivation, I mentioned exactly those projects that combine this 'format driven' or 'automated' method with a more introspective side: [[The Hitchhiker's Guide to an Active Archive]] and [[User:Thijshijsijsjss/Battles_the_Pale_Grasses_of_Pink_V]].

			I have found automatic / generative / contrained methods of producing to produce friction with this introspection, but in a very fruitful way. Steve suggested gave some pointers to OuLiPo writings I might delve into.

			I feel better after this conversation. Good introspective conversations have been a scarcity lately.

	=Bijna bestaand boekenhof=		=Bijna bestaand boekenhof=